Recovering From My Enneagram Diagnosis

My friend sent me a test to help me figure out where I am on the Enneagram Scale. I didn’t know what to expect, but she said this test was put together by Christians to help you learn a little more about yourself and help others learn how to navigate your personality type.

I took it and it turns out I’m a number 1. I thought, “WOW! A number 1 must be the best because it’s number 1!”. Haha. Not really.

Enneagram Type 1s are often known as "Perfectionists.” They are conscientious and idealistic individuals driven by a desire to improve the world and live with integrity. They are highly self-controlled, responsible, and detail-oriented. YES, YES, that’s me! That sounds GREAT! Then I kept reading. Enneagram Type 1s often struggle with an internal critic, perfectionism, and repressed anger. Oh. Hmmm…is that also me??!

I’ve often been described as a perfectionist and I rarely let myself off the hook when things aren’t perfect. But do I do that with others as well? Am I critical of others or just myself? And how does that affect my relationship with Jesus?

Last Sunday at church, our pastor prayed “may we give you our affection, instead of our perfection”. Wow. That hit me between the eyes. I don’t need to be perfect to come to Jesus. He loves me. His affection doesn’t require my perfection. That’s where Grace meets the sinner. The perfectionist, the Enneagram type 1s. And you. Let him meet you right where you are.

Romans 5:8 says “But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” Even and especially us imperfect ones.

~ Brooke